Life at our house has been nothing short of crazy... last week I work 50 night house, did hair, had a very sick one year old and that one year old made me super sick! Steve had a BIG visit with corporate at work, this means we don't see him much:-(...My best friend and Khloes sitter was put on bed rest last week and steves hours are changing again...Meaning I am no longer working with Bill. I am incredibly sad about not working...It gave me something to do and look forward to. Honestly I have not been this happy since Khloe was born. But then I was watching Oprah(love OWN) and there was a mom who was saying she was struggling being a stay at home mom and then had an "aha" moment saying "I wanted kids, I tried to have kids, struggled to have kids and finally had kids but when my kids were here all I wanted to do was to go to work" Umm that is me in a nut shell after Khloe was here. She went on to say "Being a mom is my calling, making mac and cheese is part of my calling, the laundry, the cleaning, and poop is all part of my calling". and then today I read a quote by Majorie Pay Hinkley 

"We women have a lot to learn about simplifying our lives. we have to decide what is important and them move along at a pace that is comfortable for us. We have to develop the maturity to stop trying to prove something. We have to learn to be content with what we are."

And then it made sense(even though everyone has told me these things before), I need to simplify my life, make Khloe my number one priority, I don't need to prove anything to myself. And even though there is a lot that I don't like about being a stay at home mom there are a million GREAT things about being a stay at home mom..Getting to wake up and see Khloe in the morning, putting her to sleep every night, having the energy to take her to the park, doing family activities ect...And although i am still sad about not being able to work any more i have come to terms and couldn't be more excited to be at home with Khloe again...